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Update 2018

So 2018 has been a struggle so far. Trying to go from being in a solid (or a least I thought it was solid) relationship to nothing has taken a toll. I can't even hold a conversation with someone I feel attracted to without feeling some sort of remorse for past mistakes or even flashbacks of similar events to what happened back in July and August. So all of this has made for excellent motivation to start working on a new project and jump starting getting fit prior to my move to Tennessee (pending possible changes with work). It has been a tough experience but it has only strengthened my thoughts toward where I want to direct the rest of my life. Fears from previous experiences and dark thoughts in my head had plagued me and my life for years, and now I am finally translating that frustration into positives. Recent successes have only but confirmed this feeling, whereas I have already shed a few pounds (that feels weird to say...) and I have gotten back to doing legitimate research …
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New Year, New Me. 2018 Edition

So a lot of the crap that happened in 2017 made me really take a step back and reevaluate my life and where I want to be when I turn 24 later this year. Most of what I want to change has to do with my health, both mental/emotional health and physical health. I want to be able to wake up and not be tired, I want to have a regular schedule and not fall from that. I want to be fit and healthy for probably the first time in my life and I want to be able to not rely on others for happiness or as way to avoid boredom. I want to focus on my writing, my work, and my future without distractions and finally get into habits that are healthy and positive. So this blog, in addition to my social media accounts will be my record, motivation and encouragement for this.

So to start off the year, I am starting simple and working from there. These first few days have been focused on planning and executing the basics, like waking up early and removing distractions. This begins with any social media/commu…

Life Update (No. 2)

So this week has been a difficult one, and for that matter the past month hasn't been that much of a cake walk either. So I feel like there is point of making sure that I update those who are "out of the loop" so to speak on the situation to avoid as much awkward conversations in the near and distant future.

First I will start with the positives, it will be much shorter than the negatives but oh well. So after a year, I am finally moving up in the world from a part time position to a full time position at my job, it's a bit of shuffling however its been a lot of work and some would say deserved. For those who don't know, I have been pretty much working two jobs at a time for about the last 3 years give or take. So starting with this upcoming week I will be officially working one job! Only one!! (Until I need to pick up something else to help with bills probably?) I will be done working at restaurants for the time being, which is bittersweet because I have really …

The Brew

From June of 2014 until this past September, my life was ruled by the brew, Coffee that is. Coffee ruled my life, night and day it got to the point where I quite literally needed coffee to be able to sleep.  Waking up was hard until I got coffee and the middle of the day was rough unless I had coffee. I loved it though, I always talked about my job to family and friends. I had customers that would come in daily and ask about my life, what I had been working on, how my family was. They had basically become a part of my family at times, and I loved every second of it. Now the money was not great, but I made it through. Sometimes I would need to sit tight until Tuesday when tips would be made available for gas or groceries, but I loved it. You can ask anyone that was around me for that period of time, small talk revolved around coffee.

So when I was given the opportunity to interview for a job that would completely change my life, I was skeptical. I was comfortable, not exactly where I w…

Not My President

SO... I know this will probably by really controversial in terms of posting this on social media. But oh well.

I did not vote for Donald Trump, nor have I ever thought very highly of a man that spends most of his time, on social media and on television, yelling and complaining about events and people around him. Throughout the campaign season, I was one of the many people that saw him as a very extreme and laughable candidate that would bring jokes for late night hosts and not much else. I sat next to my girlfriend with a straight face late into that November night when he won the election, in disbelief. Not because he won, but because someone in this day and age can say such inappropriate things so blatantly and publicly and still be considered someone trusted enough to be our nations leader. Things that I sure would never want to be spoken about anyone in my family, anyone I consider my friend, or any future children etc.... If anything that he has said, just in general was said in …

My Writing.

So I have advertised myself as a writer for many years now. With nothing published and nothing really advancing in the writing world other than a dream. Yet I do not stop writing no matter what. I have tried to find an answer to the question of why I write, or why I still write even though I have not really advanced much. Well.... I honestly do not know. I can tell you one thing, even though I do not have a way to post online except a beaten up iPad and a Bluetooth keyboard I still do it. In fact right now I am siting in a chair on Georgia Street in Downtown Indy writing. It is one of the few places that I have to be completely myself and be calm with the world.

Last year I took a vacation by myself, I took the week off work with no plan except a general destination and I left town. I drove through the country down through Kentucky and Tennessee. I drove through the Great Smoky Mountains near Gatlinburg and I drove through South Carolina to Charleston. I spent a few days there and the…

Bastille and How Music Saved Me.

So today my favorite band released their newest single from what will be their newest album. It's called "Good Grief" by Bastille and it is pretty dang good if you have not heard it.

Anyway it kind of inspired me to kind of come clean with some of my struggles and how happy I am that Bastille is even a thing and how they have affected my life in a positive way. So a little background to Bastille, at least the connection between me and Bastille. I first heard their song "Haunt" way back in 2013, and my brother and sister and I quickly fell in love with their music. I have to say though that I think I was the most excited about their music. Through the next year, I would frequently search for Bastille's music on the Internet only to find out that their music is only available in Europe and that it had not even been released in the US. That disappointed me to a point that I was looking for ways to download their music because I just wanted to hear more and mor…